Day 1

Alright, so we're starting the morning of day one. Jonas and I just had a talk about the whole thing. I'd mentioned it before, but I didn't want to get him freaked out about restricting his food choices any sooner than I had to. Anxiety is a big factor in his anger and impulse control so it seemed wise to not make him fret over it.

Ant any rate, the talk went well. I reminded him of how he gets tummy aches and chest pains and head aches - something very concrete that he can relate to - and also about how he gets too wound up and doesn't feel good and can't control himself. That one is hit or miss with him even acknowledging what I'm saying. I think he feels a lot of embarrassment about loosing it, and thus does not want to think about or address it at all. But, he agreed that if eating different foods would help him he'd be all for it. After all, pasta and pears are the go-to foods anyway, so if it's as simple as switching to brown rice pasta, I say bring it.

I'm following the Dr. Sears TED. While I'm nervous (mostly that nothing will come of this and it will be a huge waste of time) I'm excited and hopeful, too. I mean, could it really be as easy as controlling diet? That's such a tangible thing, unfathomably easier than controlling environment (the former main concern). I mean, I love control, control is what I do best. The biggest problem I see right now is with making sure everyone feeding this kid is sticking strictly to this diet. Steve, are you reading this? I'm talking to you. I suppose the simplest way to handle that is to supply their papa with approved foods. God, this is sounding like a lot of work.

Since he hasn't eaten anything yet there's little to post, so I think I'll leave it at this for now. I've already had wheat and dairy and caffeine, today. In fact, that is all I have had. I'm a hypocrite.